Diving back in

I talked to God, talked to D and talked to S... (the A-Team) and I did it. I joined eHarmony and opened myself up to new love.

So after some weeks of dating... I have a boyfriend. Crazy, huh? It sounds weird when I say it out loud and even more weird when I type it. Weird in a good way.

I love where it's heading. All relationships are journeys and I'm really enjoying this one.

I constantly hear D's voice in the back of my mind reminding me to stay focused on my healing and making sure that I'm heard through any and all relationships I am in, regardless of the type. Communication, honesty, trust, love, faith, patience... each one just as important as the next in any relationship.

I'm not sure if it's because I'm now an adult or because I've grown in therapy or my dependence on my faith or a combination of all of it, but dating now is totally different then it was back in high school. Where I am, as a person, is so different then where I was the last time I dated. I can take it or leave it and I'm choosing to take it. I'm choosing to dive back into a relationship not because of status or appearances or desperation but because I want a relationship for me.

Who knows where this will lead... but I'm ok with not seeing, molding or directing the plan.