Destination

As we live our lives and look back on our past we never truly remember all the great details of it. We remember stories, a short series of flashes that remind us of the experiences we have lived. They come and go and because we are human we never seem to grasp the entire depth of these instances. We can laugh and reminisce, we might even remember the smells or hear the music of that era but the deep feelings, the ones that hit us deep inside our core... those are gone only to be replaced by a memory.

I'm in a place in my life right now where all I want to do is bottle up my days, my moments, so that this feeling can last forever.

God has a journey for all of us and sometimes it seems so confusing and ugly... I remember being on my knees at my house on my kitchen floor begging God to send me an email. It sounds silly now, but I remember praying "I just need You to send me an email on what You want me to do and how You want me to do it and I swear I will do that! I just need you to tell me." He never did. I'm glad He didn't. I wouldn't have learned the lessons I needed to or have grown the way He wanted me to with an email. I never doubted His love for me or His plan for me but the journey seemed torturous.

I suppose it's sort of like hiking through a forest and having to fight the cobwebs, the mosquitoes, the branches and trees. As you fight through it all you can hear in the distance, water and birds and when you finally move that last branch out of the way - there it stands in front of you, the majestic blue lake with its waves crashing on the shore and a view like you've never seen before. The hike was rough and sometimes it seemed easier to give up but the destination made it all worth it.

I know there will be more rough times to come, but I pray that I'll always remember that the destination is always worth it.

"I have been blessed and I feel like I've found my way.
I thank God for all I've been given." ~ Martina McBride