Closure

I had been thinking of this for a few weeks now... apologizing to him. I did it.

I wasn't angry. I didn't feel obligated to. I wasn't nervous about it. It just felt right. I apologized for my part in it without getting into the weeds of it all.

I don't want to live years and years thinking about it. I don't want to think back 5 years from now "I really wanted to say this and I didn't." 5 years from now it wouldn't mean anything. 5 years from now I may not care anymore and he may not either. If I didn't do it now, 5 years from now our relationship may be different because I didn't. Or... maybe it would be the same. Who knows?

What I do know for sure is that I'm glad I apologized for my part. I'm glad he knows I acknowledge that it wasn't all him, because it wasn't. It takes two to say "I do" and it takes two to say "I don't".

Closure.