Opening up my heart

Dear Heavenly Father,

Today I am worried. I'm worried about all kinds of things. Things we've discussed in great detail. We both know it's this stupid control thing because others, they have given it all to you once and forever. For me... it's a daily thing. Daily I have to give up what control I think I have and "give" it back to You.

So today, I'm giving it to You (again).

I don't know if I'm doing this mothering thing right. I don't always have the right words and I lose patience, I say careless things and I don't think I fully understand the impact until I have a moment of quiet. Then I over analyse and I am filled with anxiety over all these things. There are days when I go to bed feeling like I've messed them up for ever. That my words or my actions aren't enough or too much. I pray and pray and pray for them. I ask you, Lord for your protection over them. That you fill me with your peace and guide me every day in my words, in my action and in my love.

I am worried about our church. Not just ours but all churches. I pray that you spark a new life into its members. That we as a whole, prioritize our lives. That we not only identify but take action on the worldly views that surround us. That we have a servant's heart and that we truly begin to act as the body of Christ. That our hearts and minds are on You. That we refuse to let our homes and minds filled with "stuff" but instead filled with your Word.

And more specifically, I want to pray for my own over-committed and complicated life. I pray you help me to identify ways to simplify and make commitments based on the expansion of the Kingdom here on earth. Help me to use my spiritual gifts to make an eternal difference.

And finally, I pray that you bless my marriage. That You challenge me to be a godly wife. That You clear away my pride and my selfishness and that my soul is filled with the right words, the right actions and the right selfless love. I am a blessed wife. I want to remember that each day, each hour, each minute.

Amen.

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. ~Matthew 6:34