Peace

Nothing has changed for me. I'm still me, trying to figure me out. I'm going through some pretty intense feelings about nothing and everything and working my way through what seems like a cobweb in my head. I don't have any answers to my life. I'm taking 30 days to pray about peace in my heart, whatever that may be. I can't go on pretending it all away but it's harder to find the peace I desperately need, harder than I thought. I have my recovery plan with D and I'm doing some homework on my own, trying to have the relationship with God we both need (God and I). This isn't about you at all, it's about me. It's about what I want and that... That's unclear and has been unclear to me for about 25 years.