Kids

I'm a good mom.
I'm a good mom.
I'm a good mom.
I'm a good mom.
I'm a good mom.

Sometimes it takes that internal dialogue to be able to keep going.

I love being a mom. I love being a part of God's plan and I absolutely love to see the world through my kids' eyes. Being a parent, a mom specifically, is better than anything else in this world (even chocolate!).

I've learned these past (almost) 9 years that balance is the key to anything and everything, including parenting. It's hard for me to fully accept and digest that because, I'm wired to try and be "super" everything, but I'm learning through some great and not so great advice on where my perfect balance resides.

I have more questions than answers.
I fail, a lot.
I constantly second guess my choices, forms of discipline and words.
I lose patience more than I find it.
I don't have it all together and I don't try to pretend I do.

That's really hard for me. I like to do things well. I am up for any challenge as long as I'm 90% sure I'm going to succeed. With parenting, succeeding is subjective. My idea of parenting, discipline, kids, is going to be different than others'. Different. Not wrong. Not right. Just different. And that's ok. In my book, I'm still succeeding because they are amazingly bright, beautiful, polite, active, loving, funny, and (for the most part) respectful.

With all my faults and weaknesses, there's one thing I know to be complete, perfect and strong - my ever growing love for them.

Making the decision to have a child is momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body. ~Elizabeth Stone