I would have told you...

Many weeks have passed and so many times I have said "oh! I need to write that down. (Blog)" And I forgot... or as time passed it didn't seem so important anymore. But now I wish I had.

Because if I had I would have told you that...

... I felt defeat and such huge ache when "my" guy lost the election. And I pray for the guy who did win.
... I am frustrated with some decisions that were made (which I had/have no control over) because they hurt my kiddos. And I pray that I can be a light.
... I have fallen way off the Weight Watcher wagon and right now, I'm not so sure I want back on. And I pray that whatever happens, I finally find peace.
... I have never felt this unsure about parenting in my life. And I pray and pray and pray...
... I have fallen in love with my kiddos over and over and over again these past few weeks. And I pray that it happens this often all the time.
... I spent these past 5 days home with my family and I have never felt more sure that I truly am the most blessed woman in the world. And I pray the feeling remains.

I will be more proactive in blogging because for me, not only is it therapy... but by keeping track of my ups and downs and all arounds, I can look back on where I've been and where I'm headed and in the end... I'll know how I got there.