Words

Communication can be challenging in general. Communication with an ex-spouse seems impossible at times.

Divorce doesn't solve anything. Divorce merely ends marriage. The problems that existed during the marriage are still there, only magnified because now there's no love to coat the grossness of the disagreements.

Communication isn't simple anymore, it's not an exchange of information... it's more like a complicated secret mission where the goal is not only to figure out what the other person is thinking but also having to simultaneously protect your vulnerability. In short: it's tiring.

I'm not mad about the divorce. I don't want to cause him harm, in fact I want to see him thrive. I want good things for his life.

I've fallen off my grounded identity a few times these last 2 weeks because I've been accused of having some hidden agenda. I struggle with being accused of things that are so far from the truth. My past and present actions have never presented such a trend.

The reason I fall off my grounded identity? Because of fear. I fear that what someone says about me is true regardless of what I know to be true. I hate that.

Words are powerful. They break or build. Strengthen or weaken.

Words can scar the soul. God can heal it.