Background noise

This must be the feeling Ariel had when she got her legs in The Little Mermaid. Excited about it, a little wobbly and completely unsure on how to take the first few steps.

No therapy means I have to process it in my head by myself. I have to listen, really listen and hold my tongue until I understand what I’m feeling. Lots of listening this weekend and lots of growth.

Ironically enough, I signed up for a gym study and so I’ll be physically working through my thoughts today at 4pm. Um… funny, how that worked out. Talk therapy replaced by physical therapy. It’s a three week deal… maybe this is the transition I need. A God thing?

Even with all these thoughts swirling around in my head, the peace and comfort that’s been there for a few weeks hasn’t disappeared. It’s still there working with me instead of fleeing, again something new for me.

Things are so good right now; regardless of the “background noise” that is a constant in every life. I think we all wish we could live in a bubble and be able to keep out the uncomfortable but that isn’t reality. This life, my life, my reality. It contains a lot of background noise… but background noise is what helps me grow and learn more about who I am as a person. Instead of getting anxious, upset or mad about it I must learn to work with it so that I can make it work for me.