My babies

I watch you sleep and I find my throat tightening up.
Both of you.

I don't remember the last day I rocked you to sleep. How it felt. How long I stayed with you.
I don't remember what day exactly you stopped nursing and co-sleeping. Your little bodies trying to get as close to me as possible.
I don't remember your little baby smell.
I don't remember what day you took your first step.
I don't remember how many diapers I changed every day.

As much as others told me I would miss this.... I believed them but I didn't realize just how much.

And now you're growing more and more every day.
When did you get so big?

Your feet don't fit in the palm of my hand anymore.
Your heads get closer and closer to mine.
We talk big talks.
We snuggle before bed.
We laugh together and... at times we cry together.

A lot of things change over time...
But one thing is for sure.

You are and will always be my babies.