30 year old tantrum

I received some news late last week that dissapointed me. A lot. I was very sad. Then upset, then sad again and now I've come to my senses and I'm back to dissapointed but understanding. In short, I had a tantrum... and I'm 30, so that's not cool.

I hate that. I hate when I allow myself to feel sorry for myself. Ugh! I have such a blessed life and even thinking about being sad about something that just is, is pretty ridiculous.

Things don't always turn out the way I hope but they turn out the way they are supposed to. Always. Knowing, resting, understanding that God's plan is always good and right and wonderful is where my heart belongs.

Roller Coaster

I've been struggling with this post for 2 weeks now. I'm excited and completely thrilled with my news... I feel so peaceful and certain about my future, however every day is a new day that brings on new feelings and makes me look at my world in a different way. I suppose that happens when you're about to do something that will change every single aspect of your life and your children's life. Something I really wasn't sure I'd ever do again. Something I was positive I would not be doing a year ago. I'm engaged and I'm getting married in a few months.

I'm thrilled beyond belief. My life without B wouldn't feel right and whole. He's an answer to a prayer I wasn't sure I was ready for.  He brings out a side in me I didn't know I had. I'm blessed beyond belief. 114 days from now I will be his wife.

My life is not at all how I thought it would be. It's like yours... a crazy roller coaster. For years I held onto the safety bar in front of me, thinking it would give me the control I was scared to give up, but now I've let go and my arms are up high and my head is back enjoying it all, resting in the assurance that God has complete control over the ride.

7 days

They are gone for 7 days.

I woke up this morning to a too clean, too quiet, too empty apartment. There was no morning rush, no tantrums or deep signs of frustration. The beds were made, the living room free of chaos.

I don't like it. Again, I'm reminded of what he misses out because I'm missing it right now. This time is necessary for them. They need that special time alone with their dad. They need to connect and bond. My head totally understands that but my heart is counting down the days until their return (4 days!).

Absence sharpens love, presence strengthens it. ~Anonymous

Cherish

A tiny moment that will be lost in the years. A moment I pray will be etched in my mind forever.

You both play in the mud and giggle with each other. Joy fills the afternoon. Simplicity takes over the fast pace of our weekly ritual.

Your smiles. Your laugh. Your innocence. Boys.

March makeover

I've had a little attitude problem these past couple of weeks. I have been easily irritated. I haven't tried to pray it out either.

Since it's the first of the month, it sounds like a great day to choose to not let the small stuff irritate me... I might even take it one step further and not let the big stuff irritate me either.  I will choose to pray it out (pray until there's a change in your situation/attitude) and I will choose to look beyond what it is that has my feathers ruffled.

A positive attitude may not solve all your problems, but it will annoy enough people to make it worth the effort. ~Herm Albright, quoted in Reader's Digest, June 1995

Happy March!