Tuesday, August 6, 2013

The glasses and me

You’d think with my life experiences that I would be a lot less naïve than I am. 

You’d think that, wouldn’t you? 

Oh, but I’m not. 

I don’t really understand why God made me this way (add that to the list of things I need to ask Him when I get to meet Him). I have had some pretty crazy things thrown at me that would make one yank off those rose colored glasses and start eyeing the world with a cynical eye. 

Me… I’m a huge fan of pink glasses. They make things look so… dreamy and perfect. When I wear them, I trust. I forgive easily. I love hard. I live with abandon. 

The thing with wearing those pink glasses is that when they get yanked off, it hurts. Like… a lot. 

And then you see the world, its people… life, in a whole new way. 
Raw. Sinful. Yuck. 

I don’t like it. 

I live with my pink colored glasses That’s me. The real me. Wouldn’t it be cool if we could all wear the pink colored glasses? 

You’d see my heart… you’d see everyone’s heart. And once we saw each other’s hearts, we’d understand each other much more. Because we’d see the scars and the sorrows and we’d understand each other’s intentions. We’d know where the words were coming from… where the thoughts were headed, what everyone was actually trying to do. 

It’s hard for me when they get yanked off. I sit with them off for a while, trying to understand the world around me. I process… and process… and process some more. 

I think about my words, I think about their intent. I think about the confusion swirling my life. I think and think and think. I’ve been thinking for a while now… 

I need to go find those glasses again.

The “They probably…” Game

Do you ever play that game? 

They probably said… 
They probably did… 
They are probably going to… 

It’s a never ending game. 

It’s the most intense, heart wrenching, evil game, the devil encourages us to play. You know it’s him right? 

He wants us to “assume” all this stuff about other people. He doesn’t want us to ask about it. He doesn’t want us to communicate and lay it all out. 

No. 

If we did that… if we communicated our intentions, if our lives were transparent… if we loved and let others love us, if we forgave and moved forward… well… 

Game Over.

Sunday, August 4, 2013

The view from you

It's your love of new things. Your wonder and amazement. Your appreciation of these experiences. I see things differently because of you. 

Everything is your favorite. You live life. 
You love life. 

You embrace these experiences and carry them with you now and tomorrow. 

When you saw the ocean today I knew you wouldn't be able to resist the waves. I knew I would hear you say this was your favorite. And yesterday you said you didn't need to do anything at the park, just walking in was enough. But of course you rode the rides and talked incessantly about the experience. 

You. Are. Awesome. 

Thank you for letting me follow you on this journey.